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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I Love Macs!

Hello Sugarpies, how's life? Mine currently, flat, but not too boring, as I always get myself busy and have something to do, imperceptibly days are just passing me by. Everyday I cooked for the whole family, just like a good housewife. No I'm not married yet, but soon I'll become one, so that's why my dad is succeed persuade me to learn and practice to cook. Cooking is easy. The hard part is, decide, what dish you want to cook just with what you have in your fridge. First week is quite easy, you can find almost complete groceries in there, and you can cook anything with that. Second week is getting harder, because the groceries stocks are running out and you need to cook different dishes, or else people will get bored with your cooking.

I tried so hard to find easy but delicious recipes over the internet everyday, which is sucks, because you know I only can browsing through my iWhite and the provider is just acted like shitty! And it’s also difficult to even find simple recipes, especially when there’s a limitation in you. You’re simply run out of the ingredients. My mum only goes to the market once every two weeks, so, twice a month, to buy lots of groceries, but yeah, it depends on the situation of course. But I couldn’t ask her to buy every single little thing that I want to cook. But after all, I love and enjoyed cooking. Oh yeah! I will definitely be a great housewife one day! Come on marry me, my dearie, and I will stuffed your bellies with all delicious foodies. LOL :p

Anyway, enough talking about the main course, now it’s time for desserts. When it comes to desserts, I believe, people can’t really hold their saliva! :D Oh yeah! Who on earth could resist the temptation of desserts? I simply couldn’t, and I bet you trice! Are you on the same boat with me? :D But hold on! It’s not like I am making a creamy, full of chocolates and strawberries cakes or something, just yet. Tee Hee... But I was making macarons! Yay!!

I’ve always wanted to make it for quite some time. It is a pretty, cute and tiny French meringue biscuit that has a crisp shell and delicate on the outside but soft inside. Made with almond meals, egg whites and surely lots of sugar, sugar and sugar! It tastes sweet and yum! The ingredients are simple and easy to find and not too expensive, especially when comparing with the macaron price itself per pieces, or well, maybe the almond meals/flour is a bit hard to find, umm no... impossible to be found in anywhere in my hometown, so you need to buy almonds and grind it with food processor or blender, manually. Don’t freak out! It’s not that hard to grind it. The machines will do and many people in all over the world are also grinding them manually :)

Okay, to make it short, I’ll just stop explaining more about this cutie biscuit to you. You can googling them. Even the ingredients are simple and easy to find, making them is another thing. You can find the recipe and with how-to-make video everywhere, and it looks no sweat in making them, but you are totally wrong! It’s not as easy as it looks. And sure thing is, you do need to sweating in making this little “bastard” :p and in the end, it might not turns out as what you expected.

In my case, I’ve tried 3 times and FAILED! I’ve tried browed around the internet, read so many online tips and tricks from the great patisserie chef, great king and queen of macarons to the common people, which have best luck in them, so that their very first attempt turned out so great with perfect “feet” on it. SIGH. I almost give up. Moreover, my mum wasn’t very supportive after we tried our 2nd batch and it failed. She also stopped buying me almonds, which simply made me can’t do anything else.

You know, sometimes, I have a very strong determination in doing something, which is good in one time and bad on the other time. So every day, I read more and more articles about anything related to macarons, from the true story till its myths, until one night, I slept with my iPhone turned on all night long, tried to load the content of dozen pages till its run out of its juice, on the next morning, while I was dreaming about these Macs!! Can you believe it? I want to be able to make it, a perfect macarons so badly! Seriously. I never that good in making cakes, desserts or anything else, just like my pro mum, but I am eager to learn to beat this Mac! So I begged her to buy me almonds again. I said that I will pay everything, the eggs, the icing sugars, almonds, everything! Because I know, I won’t stop until I get what I want.

And thanked Mum!! I was about to kiss my mum right away when she came home one day with plastic of almonds inside. I jumped, really, then this time, started to bake the almonds first. I did many experiments in making this mac. I tried my 3rd batch, all by myself, without any help from mum. I know it’s gonna failed because it didn’t dry after I sit them for 45 mins. It took more than two hours till it dried, and then I bake them. No sign of “feet” after 5 mins I put them in the oven. Oh, man! Another disaster! But this disaster didn’t stop me!

Here comes my 4th batch. I made them yesterday. The 4th batch was turning out quite well, but I am not satisfied yet. I don’t know what is wrong with it. I made one trays only. Half succeed and showed up with beautiful shells and perfect “feet” inside the oven, but the other half were failed, burnt, cracked and some of them showed up with no “feet” at all. After I removed the macs from the oven, some of them didn’t looks as nice as when there were still in the oven, but still okay. This Tiny biscuits gave me a HUGE headache! Seriously, Duh!

Here are some pics of my 4th batch  I made the original, without adding any colours, and didn’t have any chance to make its filling yet. [UPDATE: I'm not be able to upload any pics here! Blame the provider! I will update this post with more pics later on. I can't deal with this stupid connection and provider anymore. Gotta go now or else they're not going to eat anything for lunch! LOL!!.] My goal is making the macs, not the filling and the filling is really piece of cake. If you are too lazy, you can just stuff them with jam or melted chocolate :)

[UPDATE: Finally, here's the pics of my macarons :) Above: Plain Macarons Shells, Below: With Chocolate Ganache. ]

I read more and more tips and trick again and again, now I know, where did I go wrong and I’m going to do more experiments. I am very stubborn or what, I don’t know. All I know is I’m going to succeed in making them. I know I will, as long as I keep on practicing! So, will you excuse me now? I’m going to make another batch today, with its filling. Gonna filled it with chocolate ganache :) but before that, I’m going to cook for our lunch, first thing first.


I prefer to regard a dessert as I would imagine the perfect woman: subtle, a little bittersweet, not blowsy and extrovert. Delicately made up, not highly rouged. Holding back, not exposing everything and, of course, with a flavor that lasts. ---Graham Kerr

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Tea, Jam and Bread

I'm back. You know, I can't say that today is my bad day, since I didn't experience any "bad" things today. Everything just went good as usual. But, I why today I feel like, good thing doesn't came on the right time, but bad things are almost always came in a wrong time. That is simply why people would called it as a bad day.

What's wrong with today? As a matter of fact, nothing. No things are too "bad" for today-Thanked God, I still can have this gratitude in me- :)

Here's my story. I woke up this morning, a little too late than usual. I know my mum has woke me up before 6 am, but I couldn't get up from my bed, because I couldn't opened my eyes. :( More Precisely, my right eye. It stuck like there's a glue, glueing my eye. I simply couldn't wear my soft lens today. And it's discomfort wearing my old glasses. I rarely use it, because it's too heavy for my eyes and nose to hold it. Imagine, mine is -8.50 for the right eye and -9.00 for left eye. Imagine the thickness of the glass, although it has undergone a process of depletion, it still way too thick and heavy. A depletion process does make it thinner but not making it any lighter, note that.

Back to my glued-eye. I forced to opened my eyes and results of that compulsion are it's hard for me to see things clearly because my eyes are constantly watering, hard to breath because of running nose! SIGH! I don't know how many tissues already wasted today, not because of me having flu or something, but my nose is keep on running! Geez!!

Then, since yesterday, while I am home, I should cook for the whole family. For lunch and dinner. I know, we can just ask the servant to do that, but my dad said that I should learn how to cook, well, I can, but he said that it's better for me to get use to cook start from now on, for my goodness and for my future of course. Now with my eyes condition, can you imagine how hard it would be?

Oh yeah! It's damn hard to cook in my situation. Being in one of the most smoky places in the world with an irritated eyes, yeah, you should try it someday! Now, while I'm writing this, water keeps coming out from both my eyes and nose. Actually, it's so hard for me to face my laptop, but what to say. I have works to do and the deadline is tomorrow. Great. I guess I'll just reduce the brightness and hope everything will be okay. I can't stand it, seriously. *cries* :'(

I also can't stand watching TV so, it will be no more Master Chef Australia for today. Oh, btw, talk about Master Chef Australia 2010, my most favorite is Callum :) Followed by Matthew, Fiona, Skye, Claire, Adam, okay okay I have to stop. I'm out of topic! LOL!!

Anyway, what am I trying to say here is, I wasn't complaining, but I just want to say that whatever your condition is, if you sick, but still not that "weak" till you can't do anything else, just stop calling your day is a bad one, because God, never gives any bad days to you. Not even once. Everyday is a good and blessed day, remember that. It is all about how you're going to spend your day. It's all depends on you and how you'll see and overcome things that might come to you that day. If you failed, you'll just ruin your "good" day into "bad" one. It's all depends on us, how we see it with different point of view. When you have a problem, just think positively, and think that there are so many people that might be not as lucky as you and got bigger problems than yours. Appreciate what you've already had until this second and try your best to not complaining, and don't forget to have this gratitude in you.

Well, I still have much more to say, but I won't make this too long, save the words for next time. I still have a work to do, so, I am out~

Have a great and blessed day everyone! :)

P.S. Pardon me, if there's a typo(s), error, misspelling, etc. I can't face it too long to re-read and correcting the typos and hey! I am not a perfect person and English isn't my first language, mind my bad grammars or whatever it is!! *Cheers* :D

Every day is a good day to be alive, whether the sun's shining or not. ---Marty Robbins

Daily Motion

This what is going to happened when you have something to write on but you didn't write it right away. My postponement made me out of idea about what to write, while I am so in a mood for blogging. And you know, the clock is ticking, while I'm thinking real hard about what to write. Now it's almost 11 a.m. I gotta go. Have to cook for the whole family. So I guess I'll be back later on to write again. Let's hope the mood stays this way :)

See ya!

Nothing that is complete breathes. ---Antonio Porchia, Voces, 1943, translated from Spanish by W.S. Merwin

Random Facts

So, someone asked me to write about my passions, couple weeks ago. Well, talked about passions, it's a bit hard for me to decide, which I really really like, because as you know, passion is not just something you "Like" but "Love". I like many things in my life, I bet you too. But you know me, in some case I'm suck in making decision. I have to thinking real hard to decide on something, while sometimes, I decide everything without even thinking. So, today, I wanna share to all of you about them :) Here's what I wrote to her.

Here are some random facts about me. First, music is my life. I mean, I love music so much. I can’t really live without it, not literally, but that’s it. My favorite music style is random, depends on the music/song itself. But if you insisted me to mention one or two, it would be classical and semi classic for music/instrumental and pop-ballad for song. You must be wondering why I love them. To be honest, I also don’t know the answer for that, but for what I know, I am so into music since I was kid. My dad used to turn the music and song on, almost every night, maybe that’s why until now, I am so into it. Because of me loving the music so much, when I was a kid, I always try to find the tunes and how to play my favorite music which was and still Richard Clayderman’s on my toy piano. Because of me loving the music so much and I always find a way how to play it on my toy piano, I finally got mine.

You know, I used to hear music before went to bed, but now, I guess I can sleep without it. Well, even I love music, I don’t really keep the track to the latest music. I hear in here and there and if I like it, I’ll download it, so if you peek on my iTunes library, you can’t really find a new songs and music in there. Well you can, but I don’t always updating my lists.

If there is music in my life, so does the movie. I can’t really tell you why I love movies. I just love watching movies. I watched any genres, except horror, in this case, ghost movies and similar junk movies, but my favorites are way too much! Okay, gimme a list and I will choose, three of them, or four, or five, oh well, to make it clear, I just love almost all kind of movies. Maybe I am just not into some of them as much as I’m into the other. Once again, it’s all depends on the movie itself.

After thinking for a while, I guess I know why I love watching movies, because it’s the only entertainment for me. Well, I am a woman, I love shopping just like a woman in general. I love hang out and travelling, etc but what I mean with entertainment is like people love spending their times to clubbing, which I don’t. I prefer watching movies. I guess you get what I was trying to explain, right?

And you know what, I’m not like most people that hate and avoiding spoiler. I loveeeeee it. I always curious and want to know the whole story like every single detail about the movie even the endings before I watch it. I know, there will be no more surprises if we already knew it, but for some movies, I like to watch it that way. Sometimes for some movies, watching them are not only enjoying the movie itself, sounds, story or else, but it’s like I already knew the story and I have my own story, movies, how’s the characters and everything about it in my head. So, I just want to see a proof, it’s more like I wanted to know if the things inside my head are the same as reality or not.

So, I’m not always enjoying what I’ve watched. I am more into analyzing the movie, story, characters etc yet in the end, sometimes I don’t really get it. Sometimes I satisfied with the result, because its close or exactly the same as my thoughts or it’s totally different! Sometimes I didn’t. Yeah, sometimes. Weird me.

Another random fact about me, I love writing, literally and not. But to be honest, I’m not really good on it. When I was on my senior high school, I wrote a lot. Like five stories or more, about fictions, mostly cheap love stories, I can say, well, yeah five stories or more, but every story didn’t have an ending. I can’t find the ending, or either too much thinking about which one is the best, finally ended up with stuck in a half-way without ending. Instead of finishing them, I always started to write the new one. SIGH. I guess everybody knows that I am so so so moody person and I could change drastically in no time. The way I wrote is also depends on my mood. It’s not like when I am in a good mood I can write a good lines, but yeah, it’s gonna be worse if I am not. If I’m writing not in a good mood, mostly I’ll ended up deleting all of my writings, no matter it’s “good” or so – so, and particularly if the writings is not good, which mostly would be not good at all. And you won’t believe this. My mood is changing fast so does my personality. I could be in a mood for writing and not at all in seconds. The same thing goes to my personality. I could think and acted like a young adult-thinking the same way as people at my age normally thinks and acts, and vice versa. That will affect the way and the results of my writings. I have no idea how to overcome my bad behavior. Talking about writings, I don’t have any particular style in writing, I can write about anything. Mostly, I always write what I feel to write.

Perhaps, I can say, I love writing, it’s because I can hardly talk to strangers or new people. Well, I am pretty talkative and I love to talk, chit chat and whatever it is, but not to strangers or people that I don’t know well. And I am not kind of a spontaneous person. Many people I know said that they can hardly believe that I am so talkative, because when the first time they met me, I was very quiet, eventually they would think that I was arrogant and avoiding talking to the other. So, if people ask me directly, I can’t really answer them. That’s why I prefer everything that written and I love to write. I can talk to any strangers by “talking” with words.

Well, if you finished read it, you must have some questions in mind. Why I didn't mention anything about design? I have reason for that. I love designing and it's like in my blood already, but I myself can't say that it is my passion, to be frank, it is something that should become my main major and profession now-pheww!! what a confidence!- :p Because of some reasons, you may know why, or you may not know why. If you still don't get it, I will give you some example, like if you are a successful business man/woman, can you say that business thingy that you run is your passion? No, you can't. Because being a business man/woman is a choice and it depends on your skill about how to run your business and it's about your courage to speculation and dare to take the risk that you're going to be success or your business failed.

Another example, you can't say that an author or great book writers are also had this so called writing as their passion. For some of them, well, maybe yes, but not at all. See, how many talented writers / authors out there? They are super talented and prodigy like they wrote so many books about anything and they never run out of ideas.

From those example, I hope you understand, besides, hey! once again, I write what I want and I share what I want and it's all about me, okay, my decision is the only thing that matter, not yours, so do not judge me, please. And to be honest, talking about what I like, love and passion, I am not finished yet. This might be changed one day and the list will getting longer, I believe. As we getting older, we'll see things different way with different point of view. All of these are not a definitive and fixed benchmarking. Everything will change, so do I...

We welcome passion, for the mind is briefly let off duty. ---Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Can't Live Without You..

Yes, You. Let me ask you one thing. What is the thing that you can't live without? Yeah, just one. Uh, please, don't give me answer like, air, time, water, foods, money. etc. Other than those major stuffs, like, you can't really live without it, while the other can. That's it. So, what's that? Hmmm... me.. let's say...


Simple question, hard to answer. Not that difficult tho, but hard to decide, which one should I mentioned. Okay, to save time, I guess I'll just mention everything that I couldn't live without. God, Air, Water, Food, Money, Clothes, Shoes, what else? DUH!! Okay. I'm not going to talk about Major stuffs, so it's electricity.   Followed with, Internet-Fast! and my gadget(s)-no need to mention one by one about this one! You get the idea! LOL- :p

You know, I've been thinking real hard these few days. If only I had to post this thread long before I'm thinking the way I'm thinking now, I would easily say that I can't live without internet. So, why now it's electricity? Think about it, without electricity, how could you read at night time, turn on the air con / fan when you feel so damn hot, charging your /read: my/ gadget(s), turn on the modem for internet etc etc.

I don't know why I should post this thread, but it's important for me. I used to back here some time in the future-in my case, it might be tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, five days ahead, or whatever, that's future tho-to re-read all of my posts, so I can compare, day by day, am I getting better in thinking about what's important in my life or vice versa. You know, the best way to know your progress in almost anything is not by comparing to others, because, as a human, we never satisfied about what we already had, so we need to compare to ourselves first, just like before and after, yesterday and today, today and tomorrow and so on.

That's all. I'm out of words, so I'm out.

P.S. I'm glad that I had a chance to post this thread directly from my beloved Vesca, with a BIG help from my iWhite :) Everything is just awesome! :D

God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one to say "thank you?" ---William A. Ward

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Keep trying..

Let's try again :)

And I'm wondering is it support my H3 or not?

This is bold and this is italics and this is


And this is my personal tags!

P.S. I'm just trying to repost with different apps and see what will happened!

Testing again and again

I've been using another apps that called blogpress, but somehow, it disappoints me. Because of the pics is way too small. Now I wanna try how if the picture is in portrait mode. In this apps, there are no option for that so I can't imagine how it will be like. I hope it turns great. Anyway, I hate the footer pics, so I deleted it! If only it shows just link, I'll keep it there :(

is it working?

P.S. My h3 tag isn't working with this app. So this line I added manually. Oh yeah, one more thing, the pics didn't showed up on the preview page when you viewed it with mobile site! Duh! How to fix this? :(

Monday, May 16, 2011

Another test post

Hello! I'm so sorry for spamming but you know why! I'm currently trying the best apps for blogging plus uploading pics to blogger. I love posting from iBlogger but sadly I can't add any pics from there, so I need alternatives apps. I've tried ShoZu and it's pretty cool :)

For what I can remember, I've been using this app once, but I forgot why I uninstalled it.. That's why now I'm trying it again :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Test Post..

I'm trying new application for uploading pics to blogger. It doesn't feel good when I can blogging but can't post any pics there.. hope this works nicely :)

This was the pics that I used to upload for my previous post, but I could make it bcoz blogger didn't allow me to upload any pics from iPhone! :(

Sunday, May 15, 2011

In between..

Hello!! how are you blogger? Did you guys experience anything when blogger's down? Yes, I did. good and bad. Let's start with the bad one, I lost two posts, I don't know if they're back already or not, because I don't have time to check my blog today. As I'm sooo busy packing and preparing everything. I have pretty much free time now, that's why I'm here. I'm currently at the airport, waiting for my delayed plane to my hometown. Fiuhh... Okay, I'll tell you guys later on about this!

Now it's time for the good news :) You know guys, I couldn't stop myself for not share my happiness here.. Well, finally I got you-know-what!! :D Can't tell how happy I am.. :D *BiG smile*

That's all.. now, I present to you, my very first post from you-know-what *winkwink*

P.S. As you know that I don't have Internet at home, I guess I'll posting much from my new baby.. :D *excited*

There is not a more pleasing exercise of the mind than gratitude. It is accompanied with such an inward satisfaction that the duty is sufficiently rewarded by the performance. ---Joseph Addison.